A WHOLE HAND / Jackie Orr (baby sister :) ) Well, bubba, it is 5 years today. Hard to believe! I remember when Julia turned 5, a couple of weeks before you passed away, you said to her, "You're 5 now! That's a WHOLE hand!" Little did I know, at the time, how significant this number would be! Through your passing, you saved 5 lives through your gift of organ donation-a TRUE miracle in itself! I know that you are not "gone"-I know you're everywhere. Caroline's little personality reminds me SO much of you that it is scary at times. Julia's sweetness, sensitivity, and spirituality...well, is SO you! On the days when I miss you most, I run and find my babies as they give me GREAT comfort knowing that there is SO much of you that is still SO alive...I see it in them!
I'm not sure if it is getting easier as time passes. Last night was the roughest it has been for me in awhile. But Josh wrapped his massive arms around me and let me cry and I know that is something you would have done, too.
Life is continuing and changing and I find myself "stuck" when it comes to you not physically being here. I try to stay strong but even this, at times, overwhelms me. I try to make sense of it all. I try to figure out why this happened to you. Why this has happened to me. Why this has happened to us. It then hits me when I look at my babies. I find GREAT comfort in knowing that they will NEVER feel or know this pain. I find great comfort and peace in knowing that history is not repeating itself. And if I have to carry the burdens and pain so that they will NEVER have to, then I am up for the challenge! I know that you are happy and at peace where you are and I am trying SO hard to find happiness and peace when it comes to you. I know that you want that closure for me.
I wish you a VERY Happy Father's Day, Dan! I consider Julia to be one of your own-as you two were closer than close and I know how much you loved her. You are TRULY missed and loved today and everyday! Thank you for helping me, somehow, find the strength when I'm not so sure that I have it anymore. I thank you for helping me find the place and time to be still and find peace amongst the chaos. I thank you for leaving me with the tools to stand strong to be the best friend, daughter, wife, and mother that I can be! I thank you, Dan...for EVERYTHING! I love you, brother! xox
HEIDI~ A Little Heartbeat at my Feet / MOM (Mother)
~HEIDI~
November 14, 1992-November 29, 2008
My sweet little Heidi~ Oh, how I will miss you and your little self~ You have brought such unbelievable joy and laughter into my heart, and I know that you just RAN into Uncle Danny's palms... He might never put you down, except to tuck you in at bedtime!! I can hear him now..."This is Heidi, everybody..My Mom's Magical Heidi"
And, how you will then bow your little head, blink those eyes and curtsie...
Wait until they all listen to you talk!!!!
You started something here that not many would have imagined or wanted...LOTS of doxies, yet you have all given a love beyond a love that most pet owners will ever experience. Pure, honest, and never ending.
I have been blessed~
I now let you run free over "The Rainbow Bridge" to stop and smell all of the pretty flowers, for however long your little heart desires~
I will always know where and how you are. I am here for you always, and I will hear your cute little voice sing to my heart.
I thank you for loving me so right for so many years, Heidi. Caring for you has been an honor, and to know that your little teeth are so white and bright with your Heidi smile, makes me smile too..
When my chips have been down, you have stood vigil. A pair of shoes that no one could ever fill...
Sweet dreams, my little Heidsie...LOTS of good smells for you here, there and everywhere, and all things are bright and beautiful, just for you~
And, just like you...
For you, my little lady who never grew old, and never gave up..
Forever and ever and even longer than that, I will love you~
MOM
xoxoxo
"AWAKE..." For always... 10/31/78~ 6/21/04 / MOM (Mother)
~AWAKE~
"A beautiful and blinding morning...
The world outside begins to breathe..."
A WHOLE hand, as we journey on...
With love to and from our Jackie...
Memories to last us forever, Danny...
Miracles by you, everywhere..
New beginnings, for always~
I am awakened , as you watch me from "where you are..."
I love you with all that I am, and thank you for guiding me back, to where I have always belonged~
MOM
June 25, 2009
MY LITTLE ROSIE...ANOTHER HEARTBEAT AT MY FEET / MOM (Mother)
~ROSIE~
October 18, 1997~ December 30, 2008
My little Rosie...Who would have thought that I would ever be sitting here tonight, sharing with your new world, the magic of you...
No one will ever know what you brought in to my life and my heart. YOU, my miracle little Rosie, that there are just no words for...
"Just make sure that you get her a dog" they told Big Bill and Grandma Jackie...
So, home came Rozoom!!!! Your mission was to protect me and my heart, and boy oh boy, did you ever...
I thank you for your unending loyalty... I thank you for always reminding me that good still does exist...
All you have to do is be better at it!!!
Kindness is all around you...
All you have to do is show more compassion ...
Just be sure to always take care of those that need you the most...
Give more...
Expect nothing...
We made a great team, you and me, and I will carry you in my heart forever. There was no possible way that your life with me here, was ever going to be made up of anything short of your classic Rosie style...
So grateful to be alive.. A love for this life like I have never seen...
All wrapped up in 12 pounds of this little doggie bundle....
Running, skipping, twirling dancing and waking up on the right side of the bed, each and every day.
Now, go share your magic, Rosie... Go be with Heidi and take care of Uncle's other cozy arm..He needs you both to continue on, as you help show the way for others !!!
What a sight for this broken heart... I will be with you all again one day, and I love you JUST as much as you love me...
Twirl your twirl with Uncle and smile for me, always~
And.....
" Remember always, honey.... When love is all we have to give, it is simply because it is all that we will ever need!"
With so much love~
MOM
Happy Heavenly Birthday Danny / Jenny Tavendale Mum To Ross
A Heart for a Heart - You're Beautiful! / User Anonymous (Friend)
I look to you with hope and pride; I see your future brightly. Your deep concerns and aspirations, I will not take lightly. The future is a mystery that everyone explores. I'll share your possibilities, embrace your distant shores.
I'll answer you when questions stir, encourage you, implore you. But life's a challenge shaped by dreams, a gift I can't live for you. So live it well; respect it fully; play your spirit out. Seek and then discover all the best that life's about.
Remember that you're not alone~ my love is ALWAYS there. The challenge that defines your life, my heart will gladly share. You're on a voyage into time, a trip to somewhere new. You may not always see me there, but I'll be there for you.
Thank you for leading me home, and know that you will forever be my HERO~
You shall cross the barren desert, but you shall not die of thirst. You shall wander far in safety though you do not know the way. You shall speak your words in foreign lands and all will understand. You shall see the face of God and live.
BE NOT AFRAID. I GO BEFORE YOU ALWAYS; COME FOLLOW ME, AND I WILL GIVE YOU REST.
In loving memory of you, my Danny...Together, we continue to keep and make memories like these that will last forever~ Today and every day I thank life for the gift of, and the miracle of ,you..My blessed, blessed you...
"Some days it is enough encouragement just to watch the clouds break up, leaving behind a blue patch of sky and bright sunshine that is so warm upon my face... A glimpse of divinity, a kiss from Heaven"
Caroline Elizabeth Orr Heaven sent on March 13, 2007 Safe in the arms of so much love....
Thank you for watching over the most fragile pieces of our collection... We couldn't do it without you~
Mom
March 15, 2007
I WILL NEVER FORGET WHEN WE GAVE SUCCESS A WHOLE NEW MEANING~ / MOM (Mother)
"SUCCESS"
To laugh often, and love much... To win the respect of intelligent people, and the affection of children...
To earn the appreciation of honest critics, and endure the betrayal of false friends...
To appreciate beauty~ To find the best in others~ To leave the world a bit better, whether by a healthy child, a garden patch, or a redeemed social condition~
To know even one life has breathed easier, because you have lived. This is to have succeeded.
And this, you have done...
We found it, we shared it more than once, and I watched YOU carry it out... We danced our perfect dance, and I will carry this memory of you, my brave son, in my heart forever.
You succeeded long before you knew that this new place of yours desperately needed you...To be just as you now are, so completely amazing still. I will carry your message for always, here, because a love like this never dies!!
Blessed are those whose lives have been touched by you, Danny~
We love you and miss you, Daddy. I am so thankful that you and Danny are side by side, for all eternity. I know that you make each other laugh, and I know that Hollywood has nothing on where you are now~
And God will wipe away every tear from their eyes. And death shall be no more; neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain anymore, for the former things have passed away.
~Revelation 21:4~
I carry your beautiful smile with me with each and every step that I take. You will forever be my very first MIRACLE, and the gift of your love breathes life in to me still.
I will always celebrate the magic of you as we continue to forever make memories, by heart, together...
Always know that we celebrate YOU and all of the love that you send to us...Happy Valentine's Day, Danny~ We love and miss you, as we see continue to see your heart everywhere.
My heartbeat is yours~ Our love is eternal, and you will forever be mine~
MOM
2008
~AMAZING~/ MOM (Mother) How will I ever be able to show you how very proud I am of you?? Our Jackie has come so far in this process, Danny, and I "feel" your guidance from afar. We feel safe, as long as we see those mustangs!!! Your messages to your home here in the past few days are loud and clear and I have been very busy with you, planning our next step. Jackie and I laugh about all of the funny things that you used to do, and the list is miles long. A world of people know you and are so grateful for all that you have shown them. Your compassion is felt by millions and to be living out that dream of yours with you is such an honor.
When Grandma Jackie told me the other day about the beautiful letter that you had written to Big Bill, without anyone knowing it, I thought to myself "Yup, my Danny Boy had this thing called life down pat..." My kind son went to his Big Bill because he knew that together, they had big plans , and one most certainly needed the other~ I heard Daddy sing, I felt him go, and you went as soon as you knew it was time to make your final exit, and take that final bow......
I understand~I was right there with you, by heart...
I will carry on with your love ,as my guide. Baby Bears are just beautiful and she is naming them HOPE, GRACE, FAITH and LOVE A BABY BUG BEAR...Be on call for lots of tea parties!!!
Now, perform your magic and watch me carry your Angel pin from Jackie, and Jackie and Julia's Angel Stone... I will read our card over and over, and I will trust in you~ You are on this mission with Dean today, and we will see you here, there and everywhere~ I love you more than life, and as much as you love me~ It's Cody's turn to show his tricks!! A million hugs, a thousand twirls... You are the bestest!! xo Mom
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DANNY!!! / MOM (FOREVER) Dear Danny~ 28 years ago today, you magically changed my life forever... Today, you are about to do it again, as we get ready to find out all about our newest sweet angel, this most precious gift from you. You have kept us all so safe, wrapped gently in your love, as you have traveled on to a place that seems to have been custom created just for you. You have guided us in your own, sweet way, as always, and you have protected Jackie and all that she has had to endure during these last two years... Her missing you has been next to impossible~ Life says that you were too young to die; life most definately says that she has been too young to have to travel down this road without you. But, as you so well know, she has been right at my side, with our Julia, every step of my way, and without her here, and you there, there would be no way of trying to figure all of this out for me, your mother. As we jump, and Julia skips, we will dance into the heart of this new sweet baby. I forever feel you near,as you so carefully carry us all into this new,peaceful beginning. You will forever be our guide. We will forever love like you love, laugh as you laugh, and grab on to to all of the little things that matter most. I love you more than life, and I wish for you, all that you continue to wish for us, today, tomorrow, for always and forever~ With endless amounts of thanks to you, Danny, my very first angel, my one and only you... Mom xoxoxo
Two years has certainly gone by pretty quickly.... yet it seems like so long ago we lost you. I know you are still around and we all find so much comfort in that. That heart you left me took me by surprise, but there was no doubt of where it came from!! We all feel your strong presence around us everyday, thank you! Here is a poem that I've found that gives me strength when I read it. I hope everyone likes it as much as I do.
Don't stand by my grave and weep. I am not there. I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow. I am a diamond glint on the snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain. I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awake in the morning, hush. I am the swift uplifting rush
of quite birds in circling flight. I am the soft starshine at night.
Do not stand by my grave and cry. I am not there...I did not die.
I am not there...Look toward the sky.
A beautiful tribute! / Ashleigh Widger (cousin) Bets, Dean, Jackie, Julia and Josh-
what an AMAZING site and tribute to an AMAZING guy. I love you all and know he's watching out for you every day.
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